My husband has entered a different part of his life that he has never been before. He is moving 'in to a new life' of sorts.
He is struggling with emotions that are a little intimidating to him. I know, because there are issues that are being discussed, that are not that "heavy" of a subject or prevalent in our marriage.
I know that he does really love me, and wants to be the best man and husband he can possibly be.... and yet, he believes, after all these years we have been together, he can not trust what I say. Even when I am totally sincere, and I am telling him from my heart. I can only sit back and realize, that this time in his life is a very emotional journey. And I am there no matter what! As always. I am going to love him threw all the chaos, and all the calm. Why shouldn't I? I am his wife, ordained by God to be his partner, and his support. I would never leave him out on his own. Just like God will never abandon us.
However, his expectations are, and always have been, unreasonably high for everyone in his life. I am only human. And I am still a student Christian. I am still striving for better, and everyday is a challenge. Some more than others! As, with everyone else.... I am assuming.... I usually don't assume, but this is something I am sure of.... so I guess, its not assuming at all..... It is fact, everyone struggles, some time in their life.....
There are so many things that will be happening in the next several months, before Christmas. And I will be there in any form I can physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually for him.
And that is only if he accepts my help.
That is my dilemma.....
Today is one month until our anniversary! Our third year married anniversary! I am so very excited!!! And in March it will be six years we have been together!
I am so very happy with my Husband!!!! There are so many things that I love about him.....
He encourages me to be the very best I can be...... even though I don't always see it that way.... He is mostly patient. And I admire that quality in him! I hope that his patience is something I can achieve. It is one of the many things that I have been working on in our relationship.... it isn't always easy.....for him, and for me. I know that ...."God put us together, and it is up to us to keep us together"... that is what he said to me the other day! I really do love him! I can't wait for the time we can move into our own home.... raise children together and really have a deep spiritual and mental relationship! I really can not see my future without him! I really see only us... with our blended family!
(I have two teenagers from my first marriage). So, for now..... May God Bless you today!
There are so many reasons to blog these days.... I would like to tell you about my wonderful husband..... but at this moment, I will have to leave you with this....(since the library is closing very shortly)..... My husband is a loving and caring man. He is the love of my life.... he is the reason that I am a follower of Jesus Christ. And I am so very blessed about all of that! I want to share more at another time... God Bless all!
