He is struggling with emotions that are a little intimidating to him. I know, because there are issues that are being discussed, that are not that "heavy" of a subject or prevalent in our marriage.
I know that he does really love me, and wants to be the best man and husband he can possibly be.... and yet, he believes, after all these years we have been together, he can not trust what I say. Even when I am totally sincere, and I am telling him from my heart. I can only sit back and realize, that this time in his life is a very emotional journey. And I am there no matter what! As always. I am going to love him threw all the chaos, and all the calm. Why shouldn't I? I am his wife, ordained by God to be his partner, and his support. I would never leave him out on his own. Just like God will never abandon us.
However, his expectations are, and always have been, unreasonably high for everyone in his life. I am only human. And I am still a student Christian. I am still striving for better, and everyday is a challenge. Some more than others! As, with everyone else.... I am assuming.... I usually don't assume, but this is something I am sure of.... so I guess, its not assuming at all..... It is fact, everyone struggles, some time in their life.....
There are so many things that will be happening in the next several months, before Christmas. And I will be there in any form I can physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually for him.
And that is only if he accepts my help.
That is my dilemma.....
